Practice what I preach, so here goes, I'm sorry for all the things that I did after my son's suicide, I was not thinking straight, and there probably were some people's feelings I hurt along the way. I was reminded that I probably did not remember some things I did but I also should have remembered I was not the only one hurting.
Before I could forgive my son for his actions, I had to try to forgive myself for feeling so much guilt and cut down on the "should-haves" "could-haves" "would-haves" that go along with suicide.
Life was never the same since that second but I tell you I am working as hard as I can to make amends, but to home am I trying to impress, but trying to live from day to day is a job in itself.
I know this is a missed up message but that is my feeling right this minute.
You know who you are that I am trying to reach out to, just grab at me and bring me back to reality if you think I am trying to make myself better than anyone else. I humbly apologize for my actions from 13 years ago.....